Sometimes we can't describe the way we feel about anything; at least how others want to hear it. I wish there were more precise words in the dictionary to describe the way I feel at the moment. It's a nice mix of melancholy, carelessness, pain, understanding, realism, and love. Kinda a contradicting mix of feelings to have all at once huh? So, instead of writing all about it because the words aren't quite there to articulate it, I am going to include song lyrics and quotes that describe how I feel at the moment.

Girl it feel like you and I been mourning together
Inseparable, we chose pain over pleasure
For that you'll forever be, part of me
Mind ,body and soul ain't no I in we (baby)
When you cry who wipes your tears
When you scared, who's telling you
"Nothin to fear Girl I'll always be there"
When you need a shoulder to lean on
Never hesitate knowing you can call on, your soul-mate

I've been looking under rocks and breaking locks
Just tryna find ya
I've been like a manic insomniac
5 steps behind you
Tell them other girls, they can hit the exit
Check please...
Cause I finally found the girl of...my dreams
Much more than a Grammy award
That's how much you mean to me

You could be my it girl
Baby you're the shhh girl
Lovin' you could be a crime
Crazy how we fit girl
This it girl
Give me 25 to life
I just wanna rock all night long
And put you in the middle of my spotlight
You could be my it girl
You're my biggest hit girl

You had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
Never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out
How to love
How to love

You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever
Now you in the corner tryna put it together
How to love
How to love

For a second you were here
Why you over there?
Its hard not to stare, the way you moving your body
Like you never had a love
Never had a love

When you was just a young’un you’re looks but so precious
But now your grown up
So fly its like a blessing but you can’t have a man look at you for 5 seconds
Without you being insecure
You never credit yourself so when you got older
It’s seems like you came back 10 times over
Now you’re sitting here in this damn corner
Looking through all your thoughts and looking over your shoulder
You had a lot of dreams that transform to visions
The fact that you saw the world affected all your decisions
But it wasn’t your fault
Wasn’t in your intentions

You the one here talking to me
You don’t wanna listen
But I admire your poppin bottles and dippin’
Just as much as you admire bartending and stripping
Baby, so don’t be mad
Nobody else trippin
You see a lot of crooks and the crooks still crook

Forgive and forget, bitch I already forgot
I'm over the bitch, and she over the top
They say love is the key, somebody changed the lock
Well, and I wish I never met ya
And I heard you're doing you, and you heard I'm doing better
And all I had to do was put two and two together
But that just makes four, but not four-ever, damn
So much for being the perfect couple
I put in overtime, I was working doubles
I wish you the best, good luck boo
Weezy F, for fuck you

Got this feeling in my heart,
Thats yearning for you
I hope that you feel the same
This yearning that I do.
If you love me
like you say you do
why don't you show me
just how much you do
If you love me unconditionally
Say that you always, always be with me